I decided to take up blogging as a place for me to go, a space of my own. So many times memories slip or fade over time... I am at the point in my life right now where there are many new chapters that I want to remember.
I thought about those old fashioned hand written diaries but with two children (a tween and a teen) in the house, that isn't always smart...not with what I might have to say some days. So for now this is my little haven...a place for me to remember, vent about, share and discover as I walk through this new beginning in my life.
My story:
I am a single mom of two awesome kids who light up my world, they are truly the air I breathe and the reason I smile everyday. I left their dad because the marriage became an epic fail, it was absolutely the hardest decision I ever had to make in my life. I am one of those very old fashioned types, (a fairy tale believer in a way) I had always dreamed about meeting the man of my dreams, falling in love-staying in love, having a family together and being married forever. Sounds simple actually and for many it is, it was for me for many years, until things started to crumble and fast. I couldn't understand why he changed, or what I was doing wrong to deserve to be treated the way I was...there were many faces of abuse and they were all ugly...it was time to go, so I left.
It has been a journey no doubt...so many realizations, self discoveries and tears all leading to where I am now. Right now I am now on a road that is being so delicately paved as God directs my path and I am trusting completely in him! For the first time in a LONG time I can honestly say that I am very happy and that is a great place to be! My kids are happy too and that makes me even happier!
Along this journey I met a wonderful man who is my best friend among many other things. We are polar opposites in many ways yet we share many of the same goals and dreams in life. He inspires me, encourages me, believes in me and loves me. I love him back!
He is a simple man with old fashioned beliefs: He believes in family, working hard and being true to yourself. He is loyal, stubborn and has a heart of gold.
We have mutually agreed to incorporate discipline/spanking into our relationship, this is only a small fragment of us...this doesn't define us but it is part of us. Most who share this dynamic to any degree understand its components and the dynamic.
Our lives are like most others...it consists of the simple day to day things, laughter, and struggles. I am a mom, friend, daughter and girlfriend to Mike. (for the sake of anonymity I am calling him Mike) All of these things are part of me and I will use this blog to share all the pieces of me.
Feel free to read our stories and share in our journey.
~Mandy~
